This is expectionally long, but bless you if you muddle through it.

So, I'm not sure where to begin. I've spent the last day and a half numb and pretending nothing happened and I may wake up from this dream.

As most who know me may know, I've been having problems with my roommate. Namely is disinterest in paying bills and his dislike of my boyfriend. Well, my boyfriend and I have been paying our third of both electric and cable/internet bills since we moved in last November, but during that time since my roommate hasn't paid a lick of his portion, we have a huge past due and our electricity was turned off. My boyfriend and I were shocked and pissed. The past due was $360.00. My boyfriend, before I got home, confronted him about it and our roommate (Karl btw) said we would have to wait a couple of weeks.

This put us in a situation. Do we sit with out lights for a 'few weeks' or do we pay Karls $360 and probably never see the $$ again. Well, due to my boyfriend having homework to do and the fact I can't wake up for work without an alarm clock and don't like to shower in the dark, I decided to pay it with my birthday money. I had $200 from my birthday and had worked hard to save another $200. There is all fucking went. Needless to say I was very upset and sort of broke down in tears. So Jason stormed up stairs and got into a argument with Karl regarding his lack of bill paying and how upset I was. Karl freaked out and told Jason if he ever tried to come near his room again he'd kill him. I told them both the cool the fuck off and we went out to dinner.

We spent the night at a friends house and the next day Jason to my birthday money and paid the bill. During the evening when we were collecting our stuff to go to our friends Jason grabbed the PS2 and accidentally got Karls dual shock controller. He didn't mean to, but hey, it was dark in their. Karl realizes this the next day and tells Jason he wants it 'immediately'. Jason of coarse retorted with how he wants the money for the bills 'immediately'. Karl then turns around and tells Jason he's going to call his school and tell them he's stealing equipment and getting him expelled. Where the fuck did that come from? Where the hell does he get off threatening something so important over a video game controller and his lack of bill paying.

Jason follows Karl upstairs to ask what the hell he meant by that and Karl turns and starts wailing on him. I get upstairs just as Karl is about to shove Jason down the stairs and I get behind Jason to brace him and give him some leverage from falling. It works, it also gets me thrown into a wall. I finally get between the and Karl turns and picks up his computer tower over his head and starts to swing it. He gets around me a narrowly missing brining it down on Jasons head. I get between them again and Jason runs downstairs to get a baseball bat. I catch him on the stairs and tell him not to be stupid, this will only get him in more trouble and to handle the situation right. So we step outside and Jason calls the cops.

We are still outside when they show up. I'm shaking like crazy and the poor dog doesn't know what the fuck. Jasons standing with the officers behind the fence at the entrance to the parking lot. Thats when Karl comes out trying to leave. I don't thing he saw the police officers because he was to busy making faces at me. The police talk to them both separately, and talk to me as well. I tell them what happened, no more, no less. Then the officers approached Karl and started to put him in handcuffs.

I turned away. I couldn't watch. I just couldn't watch my best friend of over 10 years get arrested. With it I felt any hope of mending our friendship slipping away. I could hear them clicking shut the handcuffs, it was all I could hear. It was deafening. Even though he didn't pay the bills, he hit first and generally went insane, I couldn't help but feeling like I betrayed him. Like I failed as a friend. I never in a million years thought I would be standing idly watching my best friend get arrested and doing nothing.

Later Jason and I went to dinner to try to relax and talk. He told me he knew this was hard on me and that if I didn't want him to, he wouldn't press any charges. That was sweet of him. I told him that it really was up to him. He was the one assaulted. I guess mine and Karls friendship changed the minute he got arrested, and charges or not charges is going to change that. I told Jason I'd support him 100% with whatever he wanted to do. So he's pressing charges. The DA told him that he easily has a case for harassment and assault IV as Jason had visible marks on him. Also, Karl will be on probation for 2 years and there will be a restraining order. Currently he can't come back tot he house of have any contact with us.

Now we have to pay for his portion of the bills AND is $300 for rent this coming month on top of finding a new place to live and possibly having lease breaking fees up to or over $1000.

I really don't know what to feel right now.

God, work sucks. First off , there is a group of 5 woman in our CSR department. 3 of which, are the most annoying catty, snobbish, gossiping, and back stabbing woman I've ever met. Well, i shouldn't say that because every job has a group of women like this. I love being female, I just typically have issues with my peers as I'm not a pretentious bitch. The leader of the pack and I have gotten into little tiffs now and then because she can't seem to keep her hands off my stuff. She seems to often mistake my desk for a supply closet. I'm just a receptionist so why would I need my scissors, chair, stapler, or even my entire fucking cabinet. I guess when I pulled her into the break room to politely tell her to keep her paws of my crap she must have had water in her ears as she didn't listen. So I started locking my desk. And do you know what she had the balls to ask me? FOR A FRICKIN' KEY TO MY DESK!!!

I told her 'no' and that there was nothing in their she needed that she either A)couldn't find in the actual supply closet or B) wasn't hers to be looking at (other people attendance records etc)

So that started her little 'issue' with me. She's one of those anal, OCD types that always has to be in control and I didn't let her. So she'll continually get into my things and my work under the guise of, "well I didn't know what you were doing with it" my response of, 'well then don't touch it' doesn't go along well either.

So that brings us to the last two weeks. One of the CSRs had quit and I turned in my resume as I am way more qualified for that position, not only with customer service, but sales and past cargo experience as well. I am over qualified for a receptionist position, I only took this job as I needed something ASAP and they promised me I would be promoted. So low and behold, guess who my manager has turned the interviewing and hiring of the new CSR over to? If you guess the desk pilferer, your correct. Needless to say outside people have been coming in for interviews today and no one has said one damn word to me. I wonder if he even looked at my resume on its expensive cotton paper before he fed it to the shredder.

I just don't take authority well. Its not that I can't be managed, I just can't be micro-managed and I don't tolerate being bullied and I certainly don't tolerate and put up with mindless, gossiping woman. Its just the unfortunate part of life I have found that 99% of all jobs include all 3. As for that other 1%, I don't know where it is yet.

So I'm depressed, and I want to throw this computer over the partition directly onto that bitches head.

Hey, so I'm an idiot.  My password on here somehow got disabled
and I couldn't log on to update or read my subs.  I emailed them a
million and one times to help with the problem and I thought they were
ignoring me.  Then while talking to Austin the other night I
checked my old email and their my reset password was.  I didn't
even thing about it. 

So I just became an ordained minister.  I can marry people,
perform baptisms, last rights, absolve people of their sins
etc...  It took abou three minutes at www.ulc.org.  My friend
Cameron was ordained through them and has married basically all of my
friends.  Kind of odd.  But I can also pick a title

http://www.ulc.org/catalog/product_info.php?products_id=65

Universal Philosopher of Absolute Reality
has a nice ring to it don't you think?  Ofcoarse Goddess is nice
too, so is Wizard.  But thats just because I just finished Harry
Potter.  So anyone need to get married or baptised?  I'm
itchen to get started! 

OH, I can also start my own church now.  Now that is one SCARY thought!!!