February 12, 2005

• So, I'm still uber irritated about this doctor thing, its all I could
  think about last night.  Erin and my roomate have both suggested
  my mom has exagerated what my doc said.  But I don't know, while
  she is capable of doing that, I can also hear my doctor saying
  it.  I feel like I should write a letter as I don't know if I can
  aptly say in person what I am feeling.  I'm not going to go over
  her head and get her in trouble yet, I just want to be able to express
  myself to her. 

  I'm also worried about my living situation.  I should have known
  it maybe harmful to live with my best friend.  Then again, if we
  are able to work out this shit, we may be stronger for it in the long
  run.  The problem is, he is really depressed and needs to find a
  job.  Not really so much for the money issue, but because he feels
  lazy, like he's not pulling his weight and its bothering him.  I
  can understand that.  Its sort of a sense of panic, especially
  when others are depending on you.  It just seems we are very on
  edge around each other.  I know he is also annoyed by certain
  changes in me that may have not been so obvious before we lived
  together.  Alot of the are due to my boyfriend and are actually
  very good changes.  Like the ability to let go of a situation and
  not let things bother me so much.  Where as Karl wants to talk
  everything to death and can hold a grudge.  He seems to think we
  are growing apart.  He came up with this idea in the middle of an
  agruement and said it all dramatically.  All it did was piss me
  off.  Changing doesn't mean growing apart, trying not to change
  and hold on to things from the past is.

  Oh, I found this on some random google search I did, its semi-interesting

  My japanese name is
   坂本 Sakamoto
  (book of the hill) 久美子 Kumiko (eternal
  beautiful child).
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